I need help with myself?

You just got to remember that there are always going to be problems and situations in your life that are going to be a little tough. The thing you got to re-focus your attention on, is that if you can make it through all those problems, then you can achieve your goals and live a good life. At one point, you'll have a good job, find love, and live the life that you want. But to do this, you need to stop focusing on the negative things, because all that does is make everything worse. Start looking on the bright side. Force yourself to look at the good things. When you're in a bad situation, just stop for a second and think of all the good things. It sounds really stupid, but when you try it, you will see that it really makes you a happier person, and it will help you to conquer everything that you have a problem with now.